It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the sound I heard when I was 9 and my father slammed the front door so hard behind him I swear to god it shook the whole house. For the next 3 years I watched my mother break her teeth on vodka bottles. I think she stopped breathing when he left. I think part of her died. I think he took her heart with him when he walked out. Her chest is empty, just a shattered mess or cracked ribs and depression pills.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s all the blood in the sink. It’s the night that I spent 12 hours in the emergency room waiting to see if my sister was going to be okay, after the boy she loved, told her he didn’t love her anymore. It’s the crying, and the fluorescent lights, and white sneakers and pale faces and shaky breaths and blood. So much blood.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the time that I had to stay up for two days straight with my best friend while she cried and shrieked and threw up on my bedroom floor because her boyfriend fucked his ex. I swear to god she still has tear streaks stained onto her cheeks. I think when you love someone, it never really goes away.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the six weeks we had a substitute in English because our teacher was getting divorced and couldn’t handle getting out of bed. When she came back was smiling. But her hands shook so hard when she held her coffee, you could see that something was broken inside. And sometimes when things break, you can’t fix them. Nothing ever goes back to how it was. I got an A in English that year. I think her head was always spinning too hard to read any essays.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s that I do.

It’s not that I don’t love you.  (via extrasad)








So if a teenager is at school for roughly 8 hours, and they are doing homework for 6+ hours, and they need AT LEAST 9 HOURS OF SLEEP FOR THEIR DEVELOPING BRAINS, then they may have 0-1 hours for other activities like eating, bathing, exercise, socializing (which is actually incredibly important for emotional, mental, and physical health, as well as the development of skills vital to their future career and having healthy romantic relationships among other things), religious activities, hobbies, extra curriculars, medical care of any kind, chores (also a skill/habit development thing and required by many parents), relaxation, and family time?  Not to mention that your parents may or may not pressure you to get a job, or you might need to get one for economic reasons.


also filed under: reasons high schools copy homework and cheat

And then there’s college, taking this insanity to a whole new level

This is how ridiculous effing grad school is. Except research is piled on top.

  1. Kiss like you mean it.
  2. Remember their birthday, every year.
  3. Make them feel special, even on a monday night with a forecast of rain.
  4. Befriend their Mom, she will tell you stories that no one else can.
  5. Order each other food at restaurants, just to try something new.
  6. Shower together, you may learn to love your body, by seeing the desire and passion in your partners eyes.
  7. Leave notes when you go out for the day, it will make you feel safe.
  8. Watch the Breakfast Club, and pump up your fist in the end, even if it only happens once.
  9. Care for each other when sick, soup is the easiest thing to make.
  10. Make chocolate covered strawberries in summer simply because you can.
  11. Go fishing with their Dad, and listen to what he has to say, even if he may have trouble saying it.
  12. Give each other little presents, even if its just a rose on friday the 13th.
  13. Get angry, but forgive.
  14. Love, love with all you’ve got.

14 things to remember in a relationship (via hollowfawn)

“Smile, even if it’s fake. Laugh, even if you hurt. Don’t let anyone get to you, you’re beautiful regardless of what anyone says to you.” (via thedailypozitive)

“When you stop searching and you calm down and you put your books away, and you confront yourself and see what you are all about, that will bring about bliss faster than anything you can ever imagine or ever do.”

Robert Adams (via theonetrueself)


Smoothie time!!!! #funeralformyfat #vegan



I love this nautical theme! :)

This is so freaking cute. I love this.

  • 1. had sex? Duh.
  • 2. bought condoms? Once.
  • 3. gotten pregnant? Yes.
  • 4. failed a class? No.
  • 5. kissed a boy? Yes.
  • 6. kissed a girl? Yes.
  • 7. had a job? NO ONE WILL EFFING HIRE ME :(
  • 8. left the house without my wallet? Yes.
  • 9. bullied someone on the internet? Yes.
  • 10. sexted? Yep.
  • 11. had sex in public? Definitely.
  • 12. smoked weed? Yep.
  • 13. smoked cigarettes? Duh.
  • 14. smoked a cigar? Always.
  • 15. drank alcohol? Yes.
  • 16. been to a wedding? Yep.
  • 17. been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Lol, of course.
  • 18. watched tv for 5 hours straight? No.
  • 19. been late for school? Yes.
  • 20. kissed in the rain? Not exactly.
  • 21. showered with someone else? A lot.
  • 22. been outside my home country? No :(.
  • 23. been on a road trip longer than 5 hours? Yes.
  • 24. had lice? No.
  • 25. gotten my heart broken? Yep!
  • 26. had a credit card? No.
  • 27. been to a professional sports game? Yes.
  • 28. broken a bone? Yes.
  • 29. been unhappy about my weight? Forever.
  • 30. won a trophy? Nope.
  • 31. cut myself? Yes.
  • 32. been on a diet? Too many.
  • 33. rode in a taxi? Yes.
  • 34. stayed up for 24 hours or more? Yes.
  • 35. been to a concert? Not til Wednesday.
  • 36. had a crush on someone of the same sex? Yeppers!
  • 37. had braces? No.
  • 38. wore make up? Everyday.
  • 39. lost my virginity before I was 16? No, I was 16.
  • 40. kissed someone a different race than myself? Every day.
  • 41. Snuck out of the house? Yep/
  • 42. had oral sex? A lot.
  • 43. dyed my hair? A lot.
  • 44. met someone famous? Nope.
  • 45. been on vacation? Yes.
  • 46. been on a boat? No.
  • 47. been on an airplane? Hell naw.
  • 48. prank called someone? Yep.
  • 49. taken a pregnancy test? Obvi
  • 50. been suspended from school? Yes.









Yes, but REALLY research it. Don’t just read blogs, look at the actual peer reviewed research (hint: there isn’t any for some of it, like placenta encapsulation has no proven benefits). Be aware that a lot of pseudoscience (like ‘leaky gut syndrome’) can easily sound like real science. 

Also be aware that if you research something like cloth diapers and decide they aren’t for you, that doesn’t mean you researched wrong. A lot of these things are subjective and giving birth in water without an epidural is not necessarily better for your baby, even though the natural childbirth community wants you to believe that it is. 

So much this. What is right for one person isn’t right for the next so research and come to your own conclusions about things!

Why isn’t CIRCUMCISION on this list?

Because everyone circumcises. It’s totes nbd, why would anyone want to research it ;)



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