It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the sound I heard when I was 9 and my father slammed the front door so hard behind him I swear to god it shook the whole house. For the next 3 years I watched my mother break her teeth on vodka bottles. I think she stopped breathing when he left. I think part of her died. I think he took her heart with him when he walked out. Her chest is empty, just a shattered mess or cracked ribs and depression pills.
It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s all the blood in the sink. It’s the night that I spent 12 hours in the emergency room waiting to see if my sister was going to be okay, after the boy she loved, told her he didn’t love her anymore. It’s the crying, and the fluorescent lights, and white sneakers and pale faces and shaky breaths and blood. So much blood.
It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the time that I had to stay up for two days straight with my best friend while she cried and shrieked and threw up on my bedroom floor because her boyfriend fucked his ex. I swear to god she still has tear streaks stained onto her cheeks. I think when you love someone, it never really goes away.
It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the six weeks we had a substitute in English because our teacher was getting divorced and couldn’t handle getting out of bed. When she came back was smiling. But her hands shook so hard when she held her coffee, you could see that something was broken inside. And sometimes when things break, you can’t fix them. Nothing ever goes back to how it was. I got an A in English that year. I think her head was always spinning too hard to read any essays.
It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s that I do.”
SOMEONE FINALLY SAID IT
So if a teenager is at school for roughly 8 hours, and they are doing homework for 6+ hours, and they need AT LEAST 9 HOURS OF SLEEP FOR THEIR DEVELOPING BRAINS, then they may have 0-1 hours for other activities like eating, bathing, exercise, socializing (which is actually incredibly important for emotional, mental, and physical health, as well as the development of skills vital to their future career and having healthy romantic relationships among other things), religious activities, hobbies, extra curriculars, medical care of any kind, chores (also a skill/habit development thing and required by many parents), relaxation, and family time? Not to mention that your parents may or may not pressure you to get a job, or you might need to get one for economic reasons.
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also filed under: reasons high schools copy homework and cheat
And then there’s college, taking this insanity to a whole new level
This is how ridiculous effing grad school is. Except research is piled on top.
Smoothie time!!!! #funeralformyfat #vegan
I love this nautical theme! :)
This is so freaking cute. I love this.
Yes, but REALLY research it. Don’t just read blogs, look at the actual peer reviewed research (hint: there isn’t any for some of it, like placenta encapsulation has no proven benefits). Be aware that a lot of pseudoscience (like ‘leaky gut syndrome’) can easily sound like real science.
Also be aware that if you research something like cloth diapers and decide they aren’t for you, that doesn’t mean you researched wrong. A lot of these things are subjective and giving birth in water without an epidural is not necessarily better for your baby, even though the natural childbirth community wants you to believe that it is.
So much this. What is right for one person isn’t right for the next so research and come to your own conclusions about things!
Why isn’t CIRCUMCISION on this list?
Because everyone circumcises. It’s totes nbd, why would anyone want to research it ;)
CIRCUMISION IS THE FIRST THING ON THIS LIST